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“There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”
― Ernest Hemingway
This as a writer speaks to me on so many levels.
Pretty simple answer, whats the fun in giving everything away. I’m not interested in portraying myself that way… EVER! Maybe in the privacy of my bedroom for my boyfriend hey that’s another story but in my professional modeling you will not find a legs spread shot- with the exception of a few positions we’ve roped me into and those I absolutely believe are not at all in the same category.
You see a lot of girls lying on beds legs spread in that overdone- overused bad maxim pose. I am sick of it really. It lacks creativity and innovation.
I have been art nude modeling for about 3 years. Since day 1 I made a choice. I wasn’t going to just throw my pussy out there for the whole world to gawk at. I think I’m better and more creative than that.
I modeling nude for the tease of the game. I want to entice through the tease not through the just here it is factor. That’s like I said before, boring.
I’m sorry if I sound spiteful but I’m just not interested if you can’t make me interested. There are a few billions vaginas out there, if you just put it out there with no creative whatever, I am not going to be interested. I can look past my basic animal instincts and seek out art. Lying on a bed just spread eagle is just not art to me anymore. I don’t care how amazing your lights are and how gorgeous your model is. It’s BORING!
I want you to sell me you! I want to know why… I want you to tell me a story using your body. I want to see personality and sparkle. FUCK this boring I don’t need to try cuz I’m hot bullshit.
You can do suck on something. I’m bored with you. Move on.
I spend a good 6-7 hours a day looking at art. I am allowed to be picky. I have raised my standards because the world seems to have dropped theres.
I want to see more inventive minds going to work to create beautiful nude art.
As for myself, If I can I want to draw people in with my nude art. I want people to see my story and who I am. I want people to be able to sense emotion and see me for who I am.
I work damn hard to create nude work that I am very proud of. I don’t want to just be another sheep that gets looked over and I sure don’t want to bore anyone. I’d be down right insulted if someone said I was bland. I know I’m not so I mean you know you have to evaluate people’s comments but point being I want to be known as creative. I think I’ve succeeded so far and I plan to keep doing so.
I guess the whole point of this rant is to say that I think it’s sad how many “hot girls” just lie on beds spread eagle and demand that the world love them. Whether they be porn stars, strippers or the girl next door I don’t care, you need to sell me. 99% of most photos that I see on that line or in that genre bore me. I am not interested in that shit anymore. I think the art community deserves a higher standard.
K end rant.
I thought I’d write a few things in a journal entry about rope and how I feel towards rope bondage. It’s just a little word vomit i hope you may take a moment to read, thank you!
Rope Bondage (suspension specifically): I’ve had a few people ask me why I do the things I do- rope wise- and otherwise, but I wanna talk about rope. Over the last year and a half I’ve had the amazing chance to work one on one with Stiix developing both our talents and love of rope. We started our journey out with arm binders, and chest harnesses. These simple things helped develop a want for more complicated things like knee binders, partials and working our way up to full suspensions and invert suspensions. From day one, a part of me knew i was hooked. I fell in love the first time I hit subspace while tied in ropes. I fell in love the first time I realized how vulnerable and helpless ropes make you feel. Of course this is an extremely goo thing ;P. As a submissive I’m drawn to most things that give me a sense of helplessness. It’s an extreme turn on for me. Rope is one of the purest forms of pain and pleasure I’ve ever experienced combined. People ask and of course I reply “Yes, rope hurts like a bloody bitch some days!” – if it didn’t, I wouldn’t do it. In the past few months myself and Stiix have been working to push both our boundaries in the rope world- trying bigger and harder suspensions. As a bunny I’ve blossomed and fallen even deeper in love with the art form and the experience. I’ve been finding I’m more and more intrigued with pushing my body and my mind to see how much I can do. If you aren’t moving forward you are essentially moving backwards if you asked me and I feel like I always need to move forward. I am driven like crazy. I am an extremely motivated to keep learning. Rope to me is one of the most amazing ways for me as a submissive to hit subspace. Some days if I get myself centered it can take minutes of the rigging beginning. I let my mind just wander away and sink into that familiar helpless but calm feeling I love so much. I feel Stiix working the ropes and feel the connection between us seeping into me, calming me even further. As the ropes continue to wrap around me, and the first few waves of pain kick in my whole body gets beyond relaxed. I can be in perfect excruciating physical pain and still feel a calm. I feel so at home in ropes. Pushing normal suspensions to inverts changed my life! I am addicted. My first invert was a basic gun-slinger suspension and it was amazing, the rush was intoxicating. Since then we’ve moved long past there to some intense ties that still never fail to blow my mind…. I look at a photo of a suspension and my own jaw drops just remembering being in it and being floored that my own body takes some of the things it does. I’ve started many ties going “Oh no no no no you cannot do this…” and then just doing it and realizing I can and be amazed. I am extremely lucky having Stiix as my rope top. He’s amazingly in tune with me when we are rigging. he’s extremely health and safety conscious and always makes sure I am never in harms way- outside of the normal you’re going to be in a lot of bloody pain thing- which i love. ;P Describing my love for rope is easy and hard. it’s such a deep love. the whole experience is more addicting than any drug and gives me such an addicting high. Endorphins are so pure, shock is so intense and beautifully natural it moves me in a way i can’t describe in words. I have been extremely blessed and honored to have the experiences I’ve had in the path of rope. I am buzzing with ideas and cannot wait to see them come to live.